Haiz,
I am going to lose someone,
Who is very important in my life.
Even though I know it going to happen sooner or later,
Yet no matter how hard I tried,
I just can't do anything to prevent this from happening.
Now,
For once,
I really admit,
And feel that I am useless.
After all this years in band,at home, in schools or other places,
Teasing my brothers, juniors and friends,
That they are useless,
I finally realize that they are not useless.
Ya,
In fact,
They are more useful than me.
I am one that is really useless.
Sigh.

Why must this happen to me?
Why must this happen now,
just when everything looks so promising,
And just when I have great hopes for the future?
Why must it happen now?
Is this all retribution?
If yes,
What have I done wrong previously?
Where have I done wrong?
Why can't I just have the second chance in things I do?
Or even in things and people I love?
All lead down to this question,
Why is my life like this?
Sigh.

I am tired,
But yet,
I am still hoping and pushing,
Just because you are too important in my life.
Too important until I don't want to give up now.

My heart is crying itself out,
But yet no matter how,
I am still love you.

After months of putting in our efforts,
Is everything just going to end like this?
Please don't let it end like this..