Finally came to the point,
Where I am going to make the most difficult decision in my life.
A decision,
Between the interest and happiness of the one I love,
And the interest and happiness of myself.

I know that seeing the one you love being happy,
Is the best comfort you can ever get.
Even if you are not with him/her.
But yet,
I know my mind and heart,
Is going to hate me for sure.
And ya,
I am hurting myself by doing so too.
Sigh

I am confused.
I am sad.
I am lost.
And ya,
I am tired too.
Why must I always have this kind of mood,
And feelings in December?
Why can't I just spend my Christmas happily with the one I love?
Sigh

Will I be the one to do so in the end?
Will I?
Maybe I should never know what is falling in love like.