Good afternoon everyone!
I am currently at Tampines Mart Macdonald,
Using the wireless LAN here,
To surf the net,
To chat online,
To update my blog,
And etc etc..

Anyway the main purpose I am here,
It is confirm not because I want to use the wireless LAN!
And sad to say,
I am here to study again.
Yes, study again.
It had been the second day I had been studying,
Yesterday, I also spent almost my full day studying,
And today, I think I will be also doing the same thing!
I had been studying for almost everyday,
Ever since the start of my study break!
But what to do,
When you have nothing better to do,
And your exam is coming in a week time?
You will sure have no choice,
But to go back to study,
Even if it is against your will,
As it will be confirm better than rotting at home,
With nothing to do.
Ya, at least that what I feel.

And I am sure today will be more boring than yesterday,
Because today,
I got only me, myself, my laptop and my lecture notes,
To accompany me through the day.
No xiuyi to study with me,
No sherlina and siewli to study with me too,
And no khairul to accompany me.
Sigh.
I am all alone studying again.
Yes, "alone" is the word.
This is what happens when your school is so far from your home,
And where all your classmates is living so far away from you,
You will have no one from your class to study with.
Sigh

I just feel that I am not being myself nowadays.
Studying everyday is confirmed not what I will do in the past.
As I am so sure in the past, I can only stand studying for the most 2 hours.
My entire friend in the secondary school knows that!
But look at now,
Each and every time I went out to study,
I will spend at least 4 hours facing the lecture notes.
It is so boring to be doing that,
But what can I do?

And also don't want to go for band practices,
Be it Ping Yi side or Springfield side,
Is confirm something I will not do in the past.
I never miss a single band practice in the past,
Even when O-level is just around the corner.
But look at now,
I had miss quite a number of Springfield band practice,
Until I lost count of it.

Last but not least, I am losing the passion for the band,
Be it the main band or the alumni band,
I will always have a second thought,
Whenever it comes to stuff concerning band.
And this is confirm something I will never do in the past.

All of this type of doing,
Just make me feels that I am not being the changyuan I know.
And I feel this way is not because of anyone,
Or anything that is around me.
Because I know the true problem to why I feels like this,
Is actually because of myself.
All problem lies within me.
As I was typing out all this,
I feel like crying out.
Sigh.

Damn!
How come I writing such an entry,
With such high depression feeling!
Lolz..
Sorry about it,people.
Don't worry, I am alright! =)

Ok, enough of all this talking.
Time to get back to mug again.
Cya!