Day 7

Ok, sorry for not updating for quite a long time!..lolz..and yes, without me knowing, it is day 7 already!=)..anyway I had been thinking about a topic from last night till now, and it was said to me by my conductor, Mr. kenrick poh , and every time after he talks to me, it will sure set my mind to think. And when I say think, it mean my mind is in deep thought! Anyway he was telling me why I was not the drum major, even though I almost make it to the post and also even I was close to him and he knows that I wanted that post. And the main reason was because I was immature! And until now, he says I am still immature, because I fail to make plans for my future, fail to set goal to achieve and finally, I had been giving myself a lot of leeway! And a person with no goals and aims in life, is a person with no direction, and that person will never be mature, and most importantly, that person will never be success! And yes, I know I had been trying to run away from my past which was more of a sadness and failure than happiness and success! And he said no matter what I had set to achieve, there is no right or wrong, as long as in the future when I turn and look back, and I don’t feels any regret for it...

Anyway after thinking for the whole of last night, I had decided that I want to make it to university by the end of my three years polytechnic education, and study for the degree of psychology, which is also part of social sciences, no matter what! And also regardless, whether it is in NUS, NTU or SMU. And by the age of 28, I want to have a stable income of $4000 and above!=) And after that, I will then think of starting a family, with no worries, that I will let my wife or my family starve! And yes, I know it will sure be a hard and long way, but this time, I shall not give myself anymore leeway! I will strive for it no matter what! And my first short term goal now, is to get a least a B+ for every of my modules that I am taking, no matter what!=)

Ok, that all for my planning for my future! now it is time to relax!=) And yeah, it is day 7 already! 7 more days, and I can get to see and spend time with xiuyi again!=) And for the past 7 days, I had been constantly thinking of her, and in even when sleeping, I dreamt of her for 4 nights out of the 6 nights so far!..hehe..really hope that 20th of June, will come faster! But yet, I am still worry about her cough. Don’t know whether she is alright anot liao..sigh..And during the last 7 days, I had learned how to cherish someone you love even more! Because the feeling of losing the one u love, is very bad!=) And I promise, if I given a chance to be with xiuyi, I will cherish her and take good care of her and never let her down, because I don’t want to go through what I am going through now again!=) And also during the past 7 days, I had realize the meaning of the Chinese phrase below!

"人往往在拥有的时候都不会去珍惜，等到失去后才会后悔为何起初没去珍惜啊。。。"

And ya, thank to all the people who had tag in my tag board! Really thank a lot!=)..ok, I will stop here now, got to bath and prepare to study already! Cya!=)

PS: 秀怡，我好想你啊！