Ok, I just receive her message not long ago! She said she will is not free because she is going out to eat dinner with her family..I totally understand it, because no matter what, family is always than other things, as the same apply to me! Hence I never blame her or what..But the next moment, my eyes was filled with tears, as I know that I am going to miss her a lot for the next two weeks or so..Sigh..tears begins to rolls out when I asked her if there any other chance for me to spend time and go out with her before her CA starts and not in the June holiday, and she reply, “ yeah..Actually we also no need always meets the ma..Not as if I never see you during band”..Once seeing this, my tears really start rolling out of my eyes! Ya, I know I can get to see her in band, but the problem is I seldom have the chance to talk to her like we are alone going out or so, and it is not like I always get to meet her..This week was the first time I get to spend time and go out with her, after 4 long weeks of endless and constant missing of her! And I am so sure some of you out there sure know how it feels to miss someone so much!..Sigh..I had promise myself that I shall let my tears roll down my cheek ever again since the last time, she rejected me..But yet I still can’t keep myself from breaking down this time, the reason was because she played a great role in my life! Everything she told me, everything we did together, every moment I get to spend with her, I still remember it now, and I will never forget it, and the sole reason was just because I love her so much!..Sigh..

I still remember 2 nights ago while chatting with one of my classmate online, she was telling me, she is still worry about how people thinks of she and her boyfriend which is one year younger than her, but yet even with all those negative comments given by other people, she still accept her boyfriend and the main reason was because she was touch by the things her boyfriend had done for her, touch by the care and concern of her boyfriend, and finally, by the love given to her by her boyfriend!..When she was talking to me about it, I was filled with envious, while on the hand, I thinking whether I had done my best with my present strength for Xiuyi..Maybe I just had been done to my best yet, and there is sure more room of improvement for me to improve, but yet I just haven’t notice about it!..Or maybe, I am just a failure who doesn’t suit her at all..Sigh..

I think I will stop here now ba, don’t worry about me!=).. I am alright!

PS: who ever had read this entry, please do not tell Xiuyi that I had broke down, because I don’t want her to feel guilty, as it is not her fault! Thank you!