zZz..finally finish uploading music to my new mobile phone, V3i!=)..Actually wanted to upload music yesterday, but due to the fact that don't know what happen to the program, I was unable to upload. But surprisingly, when I decide to give it my last try, it turned out to be ok!..strange right?!..Arhz! Who cares?!..As long as it work well can already, and certain I will not wish to spoil that phone as I had decide to use this phone till my new plan ends, which is two year from now!=)..haha..

Don't whether I should write something here, even though the sole purpose of this blog was to allow me to write thing I want here, which I can't do in my old blog. Nevertheless, I shall write what happen..

Yesterday, was the first time in my whole life, my mind and my self-conscious had been proved that it were wrong all along! I finally found out that what my mind and self-conscious had been supporting, is all with the wrong concept and thinking. And I feel so hurt and sad..i feel sad, was because that I had been following my mind and self-conscious, and had been refuse to listen what my close friend had said to me, and keep on insisted that what it is thinking is then the right thing. However, it was wrong, and what my close friend think is correct..haiz..hence it cause me to feel a guilty for refusing to listen to what my close friend, and shall I say, is that my mind and self-conscious just refuse to face the fact even though it knew that there a certain percentage that it can be true, that had cause me to have a setback like this. And I feel hurt was because what I had been believing, was the wrong thing! And there no one to blame except me! I should had tell myself, that look at yourself, do you think that something so good will had happen to you just like that?! And I should had scold myself to stop living in the dream!..haiz..but I just can’t, because I never expect to have this setback..haiz..do I really look so bad? Am I really so bad hearted? Is it so hard to loved other and get loved back by other? Why can’t I just be the same as other normal people in this kinda of things? Why must this happen to me? Just why? Somebody out there, can you just please tell me why!=(..haiz...really feels crying now. It had been weeks since I last cried! And guess I am unable to cry again..haiz..

And now, My soul is scare to follow what my heart insist my soul to do, as it scare the same thing will happen again. And I mean really scare..haiz..but yet my soul is not willing to give up hopes on what my mind and self-conscious had been supporting all along!..haiz..What to do?..Can someone who understand me well enough, come and guide me out of this confusion because I guess I can’t take it anymore..haiz..