zZz..Just finish watching Initial D DVD, due to the fact that I am feeling so tired and trouble now, until I can't really fell asleep! Anyway all the car braking sound from the movie, had kinda of manage to wake my youngest brother from his sleep, or maybe because he never fell asleep at all?!..haha..

And yeah! I finally finish my four days of work at IT fair, at Suntec city!..feeling so free now again!..lolx..haha..Anyway hope that next Sunday will come faster so that I can my pay faster, if not I is still considered poor now!..haha..And after finish work, I went to take a cab to rush down for the alumni BBQ as I am already quite late for it, and also I am feeling so damn hungry!..but to my greatest dismay, there was not much food for me, but lucky still got kind Edwin to cook some noodle for me!=)..haha..And I will be playing the euphonium when the band joins the NBC, as the trombone section got too much people already!..So no choice, got to change to euphonium!..Anyway it may be a blessing in disguise?!..haha..

Four days had passes, and my soul is suppose to make a decision whether to follow my heart or to follow my mind and self-conscious? But yet due to my incompetent soul, I am still unable to make a decision, and hence my soul is once again trap in the endless confusion. The reason I want to make a decision fast, was because I don’t want to drag on this thing anymore!..but yet, neither my mind and self-conscience nor my heart is willing to give in! they each insist on each stand, and are giving my soul the most wonderful reasons to follow it! That why I am feeling so confuse now!..And I hate this type of feeling, I feeling hate it! And there no one to blame, but myself and my own playfulness! If I was not so playful then, I won’t be feeling so confuse now..really feeling crying now!..I maybe smiling everytime people see me, but yet do they ever know all the pain and confusion in me!..haiz..who will ever understand all the pain and confusion I am feeling inside me?!!!..Just who?!!!..haiz..